Monday, April 27, 2009

So today was a bittersweet day for me.

Bad news first:

Derek Jasper's viewing was today, and though I didn't go, but my sister did. And when she came home, she talked about it for a little bit with my parents, and my mother managed, yet again, to find a way to talk to me about why she doesn't want me driving a lot or too far. I'm used to it by now, but really? To turn our conversation about Derek's tragic death into a lecture about the dangers of being a young driver. I think that's low, even for my mother. Not to mention, it's getting old. Honestly, find something else to lecture me about already.

Today my choir decided that they didn't want to go to State. I'm so mad about that. I mean we got the HIGHEST score possible at Region, and people don't want to go show off some more just because they are too lazy to work on the songs more or don't want to spend a few hours of their time on a Saturday to go. It makes me angry, and I really wanted to go, but whatever, can't change the way people are. I will go one of these years though. I don't care if I have to blackmail people or pull the guilt trip. Whatever. I'll go.

And now, for the good news:

I'm getting paid on Friday [finally] and so I'm going to go to Barnes and Noble with Taylor on Saturday, and then shopping with Lauren on Sunday. Should be a pretty awesome weekend.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Okay, first off I have to say that if you are religious or whatever, you probably don't want to read the rest of this post. And if you do read it and get angry or something at me, don't bother criticizing me. These are my beliefs and they aren't about to change, so don't waste your time or mine for that matter.

There, you've been warned.

Moving on. So within the past two weeks there are been two deaths at my school. Last week a senior killed himself, and then yesterday night a boy that graduated last year, and his roommate, were killed by two stupid people who ran a red light while running from the cops.

Whenever there is a death around me, it causes three major things to happen to me.

One: As my best friend says "Deaths always happen in threes," which is so true. Since it's so true I always get worried about the people I know and love. I mean, what if one of them becomes one of the three? Honestly, I don't think I could handle that.

Two: I freak out. Honestly, I don't handle death well at all, it makes me angry and incredibly depressed. I find myself increasingly paranoid and anxious. What if something were to happen to me? Or even worse, someone I care about? I'm not ready to deal with all the issues that come with death.

Three: Deaths like these two recent ones, or three I should say, just confirm to me that God doesn't exist. I mean, people are always talking about how good, and loving, and kind God is. And how he loves all of us and wants us to be happy. Well, were was that kind, loving God when these boys were killed? If he really loved them why would he take them so young and in such awful ways? Really, what could any of them have done in their ridiculiously short lives that could merit dying in such ways?

Call me selfish, call me stupid, whatever. I don't care. People should be responsible for themselves, and not let some "maybe-possibly-might-be-real-but-no-one-really-knows" God that so many people put so much faith in control our actions and be cause of all the worries in the world.

Something goes wrong, you ask God "why?"

Why not look at yourself or the others around you first, ask them. Then if it's out of your control, ask God why.

God doesn't control the world, we do, and if we really wanted it to be a better place, we would all do something about it.

Monday, April 20, 2009

So I got back from Choir Tour in San Francisco yesterday.

It. Was. Absoultely. Amazing.

I miss San Francisco already, and I plan on having some kind of vacation house there one day when I become rich and famous.

There were some many fun things we did, but I will save that for another day.

For now I'm feeling sick and lightheaded, so I will leave it at this for tonight.

Good night all.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Had a blast today!!!! Just got home from Ikea, which was sooooo much fun. Though I'm quite upset that the bed I wanted won't fit in my room. :[

Oh well, I guess I'll just have to get the round one. :}

Then yesterday I got my hair done, and it looks pretty good, but I'm angry that I spent 30 bucks on extra color that you can't even see. Oh well, next time I'll be sure that they know exactly what I want.

San Fran is in three days!!!!!!!!!

Whoo!!!!

And I'm having some friends over tonight for a birthday parta for my friend Mercedes (aka Crippled)

Friday, April 10, 2009

HO.LY. SHIT BALLS.

Today, has been pretty much the EXACT opposite of yesterday. And I'm super hyper.

So we were supposed to get our nails done, but that's not going to happen. Though I don't care cause I just remembered that I have to pay for my hair tomorrow.

The weather outside is soooooo pretty. I am loving it.

Took a walk today. a long walk. It hurt good. Damn hills...

Anywho, I'm currently reading some KanamexZero smut. X], eating pizza goldfish [which are freakin delicious], and drinking me some Vitaminwater. Hot damn. That stuff is good. 10 calorie orange-orange, baby. Tastes like Tang.

Tour next week. Hellz to the yeah.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Today was...interesting to say the least.

I was going to go the the Glo Fo Show dance with my friends tonight, but then my family got into a fight and I was feeling in the slightest dance mood (plus it wasn't really the best time to be asking my parents for money)

The fight was completely stupid as usual, but for some reason it really got to me. I don't know why...but it made me cry. Hard.

Hyperventalating is not very fun.

Then my dad just stood there in the background while my mom yelled at us. He always does that, and it bothers me. Even if he doesn't agree with anything my mom is saying, he'll just watch while we get our asses chewed out for reasons I don't even remember half the time. He's just there. Not really doing anything, and only helping us if we start crying or something. And then my sister starts agreeing with everything my mom says and if I try to talk about it later of something she instantly starts defending my mom.

I love my family to death, I really do, I just can't stand living with them at the moment.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Nothing new to report today, really.

Though I'm getting my nails done on Friday, hair on Saturday, and also going shopping right after my hair appointment.

And Tour is next Wednesday!!!!

Other than that, nothing too exciting...Thinking about going to the Glo For Show dance at the Union Station...

If anyone's interested...

I'm a nerd who loooovvvveeess me some anime, and I like to write fan fictions to go along with my fangirlism.

So if you are interested in reading any of my works click below: http://fanfiction.net/~megandanielle

Also, I would recommend reading any of the stories on the following links. They are all very, very, very good.
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Today was a rather boring day.

Really the only things that happened were my arugument with Mario about wheather or not he should dress for animecon, and who I should be. I really can't decide between Zero Kiryuu and Kaname Kuran. They're both soooo smexi, how can I pick?

The other thing that happened was I just realized that there was no Vampire Knight chapter this month!!! I was so upset!!!!

Oh well guess I will just have to wait till next month.

In the mean time I will try to figure out which guy I would be better as.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Yet another day has passed me by in a tired haze. I've been getting a lot of those lately...
Could it be due to the fact that I don't usually fall asleep until after midnight?...Hmmm....

Work today was rather uninteresting, as usual, but it did take me longer so I didn't have to wander aimlessly with my bucket of water and cleaning stuff to make it look like I was doing something, which was a good thing I suppose. Plus I only have two more days this week and two next week. Awesome.

Tour is next week. I can't wait. It's going to be such a blast!!!

Any who, the one thing I do remember from today is English class. We're currently reading To Kill A Mockingbird which doesn't really interest me as much as some others have, but today in class we watched a video called The Murder of Emmett Till.

It was...infuriating.

Emmett Till was a 14 year old African American from Chicago, when he decided to go visit some family down in Mississippi. While there he whistled at a white woman. A bunch of people got pissed, kidnapped him in the middle of the night then beat the crap out of him before shooting him and throwing him into a nearby river with a 75lbs piece of machinery strapped around his neck.

The two men who did it were found not gulity by an all white jury and they were set free. Afterwards they sold the story of how they killed Emmett to a magazine for around 4,000 dollars. This was pretty much the spark that set off the Civil Rights Movement, which was a very good thing. But honestly, how the hell can someone do that? To a KID. Just because he was a black kid who whistled at a white woman. Absoultely ridiculous.

If there is a hell I hope those two are there. They very well would deserve it.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Well I finally gave in and decided to creat my own blog.

I've been thinking about it for awhile, but couldn't decide, then I saw the my bestie got one and was like "oh now I have to get it,".

So that was that.

I will try to keep this up, seeing as I'm on the computer pretty much everyday, but since hockey season is over there may not be much to talk about.

Speaking of hockey, we had our last tourny of the season this weekend. My team ended up in 3rd place, which is actually really good considering the way we've been in the past. We had a game on friday, one game yesterday, and two today. It was a crazy weekend but it was fun. I got a couple penalties and some goals which was nice.

It was an awesome penalty too, I might add. I have a picture and it is quite amazing. I have a couple pictures actually...

<---- My penalty against the Logan Freeze. Well worth it, I might add, though I thought it was a different girl which sucked.

<---- Me and some chick named Amy from the Vixens. She went after one of the girls on my team (the one on the far left of the picture) AFTER the whistle, so I had a few words for her. :]

Well, that's about all I got right now, my daddy just gave me the 'do your homework NOW' face.

GOODNIGHT ALL!!