Okay, first off I have to say that if you are religious or whatever, you probably don't want to read the rest of this post. And if you do read it and get angry or something at me, don't bother
criticizing me. These are my beliefs and they aren't about to change, so don't waste your time or mine for that matter.
There, you've been warned.
Moving on. So within the past two weeks there are been two deaths at my school. Last week a senior killed himself, and then yesterday night a boy that graduated last year, and his roommate, were killed by two stupid people who ran a red light while running from the cops.
Whenever there is a death around me, it causes three major things to happen to me.
One: As my best friend says "Deaths always happen in threes," which is so true. Since it's so true I always get worried about the people I know and love. I mean, what if one of them becomes one of the three? Honestly, I don't think I could handle that.
Two: I freak out. Honestly, I don't handle death well at all, it makes me angry and incredibly depressed. I find myself increasingly paranoid and anxious. What if something were to happen to me? Or even worse, someone I care about? I'm not ready to deal with all the issues that come with death.
Three: Deaths like these two recent ones, or three I should say, just confirm to me that God doesn't exist. I mean, people are always talking about how good, and loving, and kind God is. And how he loves all of us and wants us to be happy. Well, were was that kind, loving God when these boys were killed? If he really loved them why would he take them so young and in such awful ways? Really, what could any of them have done in their ridiculiously short lives that could merit dying in such ways?
Call me selfish, call me stupid, whatever. I don't care. People should be responsible for themselves, and not let some "maybe-possibly-might-be-real-but-no-one-really-knows" God that so many people put so much faith in control our actions and be cause of all the worries in the world.
Something goes wrong, you ask God "why?"
Why not look at yourself or the others around you first, ask them. Then if it's out of your control, ask God why.
God doesn't control the world, we do, and if we really wanted it to be a better place, we would all do something about it.